As I lay on the operating table waiting for her to cry I could feel something happening inside. It wasn’t the doctors who were pulling and tugging (and literally pulling my insides out) but the most intense feeling I have ever felt was ballooning within and it was like my heart was… growing bigger. Well, maybe not literally but I could feel my heart exploding and all I wanted to do was meet, kiss and hold my little girl. I heard her cry. I sobbed.
I can’t describe the feeling I felt looking into her eyes, it was overwhelming, amazing, incredible. She was so alert, so focused, so ready to join us, but also… she was ours. She was still, quietly listening to our voices as we said hello and the most beautiful thing was that she recognized them, you could see that in her eyes. My heart was dancing on my chest and I sobbed a little more.
Evie was born seven weeks ago yesterday. The last seven weeks have been the most beautiful, challenging, life changing weeks of my life. From the early morning cuddles to milk-drunk smiles, dozens of nappies, billions of kisses and her sweet little ‘kitten fingers’ slowly dancing across my chest as she feeds, I’ve been learning how to be her Mamma and as I said earlier, increasing my capacity to love. Who would have thought that one little person could make someone such a bundle of emotions!
We are so thankful to our beautiful friend Narrelle from Njoythemoment Photography for capturing these moments for us. These images are so dear to our heart and we can’t thank this lady enough for being willing and able, (and at 32 weeks pregnant herself, what a woman!) it’s the most precious gift we could ever receive. Thank you Narrelle.
If you want to know a few quick labor details… I was induced at 4 days past my due date because the little one didn’t have much fluid left around her. I labored all day (with the help of a freaking awesome epidural… I did try a few hours without it, but man labor pains are mean!) and at the end of the day she got a bit stuck and had to be delivered via cesarean section. I am so thankful that she arrived safe and well.
After the surgery was over I was taken to ‘recovery’ for an hour while Nath and Evie got to know each other upstairs in the nursery. I am so thankful that Narrelle was there to capture those first moments of him and Evie together. Nath sat with her, holding and talking to her for the first hour of her life while they waited. These are all such special photos. *Sigh* Narrelle, you are amazing, how blessed we were to have you there with us.
I love being Evie’s Mamma, she has brought so much joy into our life and we have only known her seven weeks, I can only imagine how much more fun our little life is going to get as we get to know her more. Our world has been changed forever and how thankful we are to our God for choosing us to be Evie’s parents.
P.S We are very aware that out little girl looked like a small version of Mother Teresa when she came out, hehehe, we are hoping that she has her heart.